Walking on the Surface

Here are the lyrics to a song I’ve been working on.
–John Rutledge

Walking on the surface of a world spinning’ round
Hard to keep your balance as it turns.
Told myself I’d learn to keep me feet on the ground.
But it’s harder than it seems, to realize your dreams.

Swimming in the darkness, there’s a light way up above.
I’m crushed under the pressures of the deep.
I’d do anything, I swear– just give me one more breath of air.
But I’m sinking in my sleep,
Weighed down by the secrets that I keep.

Walking on a surface that is blasted and bare,
We hope to stumble on to holy ground.
“You say it’s vanity?
Don’t  quote that book to me.”
But the words hang in the air for a instant.
The words hang in the air…

Don’t it feel strange when events start to arrange
into a pattern that blocks every escape?
I’m only feeling free when I can say goodbye to me
and hello to the moment…
the moment when I wake.

Now I’m walking on the surface of a world that’s not my own.
Swimming in the darkness– I’ve got phosphorescent bones.
In the labyrith I find, I may feel lost, but don’t mind.
And the pressure just holds me together.
The pressure seems to hold me.

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5 Responses to Walking on the Surface

  1. kent says:

    Thats great John, Thanks

  2. Carrie says:

    “The pressure seems to hold me.”

    Thanks for posting this, John. That line seems to be the focus of this week for me–it really gets to a point where the chastisement is so immediate and such a slap in the face that you have no choice but to repent and empty immediately. It’s a “fail-safe program” if you have eyes to see, ears to hear, and the fear of God.

  3. Pete Evans says:

    John, this line speaks to me strongly right now “Don’t it feel strange when events start to arrange into a pattern that blocks every escape? I’m only feeling free when I can say goodbye to me” Comfort coming from his “rod and staff”–an odd source of comfort–is there once again for the asking but only when i let go.

  4. Gus Mujica says:

    It’s so simple and yet we have a way of making it so complicated.

    “Told myself I’d learn to keep me feet on the ground.
    But it’s harder than it seems, to realize your dreams.”

    From the worlds perspective our lives are a joke and we are doing everything wrong.
    Our families don’t know what to make of our abandonment…we don’t even quite understand it all..But I do know is that the harder I tried , the more indebted I became…..emotionally, financially, physically….thankfully the weight became unbearable and I could not sustain the energy or resources required to live ” the Dream”. I just laid there gasping for air wondering “what the hell is this?”

    I thank God for the pressure which lead me to Him…which opened my ears to see that all I am and all that I have is found in Christ alone. Unfortunately I don’t always see it and the lack of peace becomes my guide to repentance..

    Now we see that the peace that was so fleeting…found in sex, music, work, drugs,the next deal, the next project …etc etc…was actually only an unsustainable picture of what is found when we are at rest in complete abandonment….resting from the work that we once thought was so necessary ….that “work” now seems foolish,unnecessary, foreign …at least for us.

    The impossible becomes possible when you have no options …. all we have left is to believe on the One He sent…and that is a gift from God as well.

    Somehow, Somewhere, Peace has become the norm without our effort… anxiety, fear, and want are merely opportunities to see the flesh and are our places of repentance.

    Thanks for the reminder John.

    We miss you guys.

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